I think my biological is super screwed. It's not that i want it to be screwed. I attempted to sleep early at late 2am to 3 am, but i couldn't fall asleep. I ended falling asleep at 4 plus. I then woke up at 3 plus. But i felt tired and slept from 7plus to 10 plus. My only entertainment are twitter and..facebook? I guess not anymore. /: sadness. Probably books? I hope there's really time to study. I rather study till i feel tired then i go sleep cos this means i wouldn't waste time rolling on 2 beds!

Yeah, I talked less than 100 words per day at home now. Sister isn't going to be home for 1.5 months. I think when she comes back, she'll find me damn emo cos I wouldn't be talking that much, used to it? Bet she's enjoying in Korea.. I didn't enjoy myself that much in HongKong. I wish I have a better partner. I mean, she's good. But i'm too picky. I can find faults at her. I think she's too spoilt. Sorry, i don't really have the tolerance to tolerate spoilt brats. So i just remain quiet to avoid conflicts.

For my mye, i just hope one thing. No parents meeting teacher. That will means i'm doing fine in my academics. I hope. Study hard. This is my motivation.

From my previous training, i somehow realised something. The hard work i put in when during drills. (I was defending) Cos it's like if i defend until slack slack, my attackers won't put in their effort to make the runs cos it's too easy for them to do anything. But that feel didn't last long.. Then i realised, i lost it. I meant, i thought i always had it. But nah, i'm just showing for people to see. "see i got put in effort okay!!". Nope, i don't have to prove to anyone, but myself. People might say yaya, most probably not convincingly though, but i should know it myself i didn't put in effort. Another factor which caused me this is the lack to fitness! Oh god. Fat already, really. Pa ma keep saying me pui. I mean, i of course want slim slim righttttt?! But not easy!! I can get hungry 5 minutes right after i eat a meal!! What is this seriously.. I bet is due to sleep deprivation. Cos people who are deprived of sleep has more of the hormone that makes them hungry than the hormone that tell them to stop eating. Really fatgirl94 already. 24 hours a day. I spend more than 12 hours sleeping. 4 hours plus studying. Rest is eating stoning twitter facebook find food. Opps! Really doing my full-time pig job super well. Should get promoted soon.. Then the 'salary' increase will be food HAHAHAHA. I WISH UH!!

Kk, it's already 6.30am. See, this is really bad... Sigh.

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