Confused

I'm getting mad. This is the third attempt to post. The previous one I've almost finished typing and it was gone suddenly.
I'm still debating which JC to go but I guess I don't really have many choices cause neither my studies nor Netball are good enough to let me enter an outstanding JC. I must well go to a poly if I don't enter Netball. I do want to train hard yet the team's hardwork isn't paid off. I guess I should start working on my stamina cause it's definitely cannot make it now. Must have gain weight from all the snacks and bowls of rice or porridge for a meal. I need to work on my english too cause I'm having difficulties passing MYE, needless to say O's or A's[ think a bit too far I know! ].
I think once I quarrelled with somebody, especially friends, the relationship between us either get worse, like we don't talk more like we used to be, conversation gets less than 3 sentences from each person, or get better, like we're open to each other more and we share more secrets. I guess this time round it's the negative one. Don't ask me who man, it's not good to mention that I've quarrelled, though I know quarrel this thing might be common to me.
I don't like it when I send long texts, definitely more than 2 texts long, I get reply less than 10, worse still, 5 words! It turns me off man. Even if I want to start a conversation, getting this type of reply makes feel me extra and nuisance.
Everything seem different. People grow up and they do not think simple like how they used to be. To people, some simple and innocent answers have extra meaning. Ya, innocent princess k.
I like it when my blog is dead, cause no one will read it frequently. When it's really dead, I have the habit to post daily. Some people interested in everyone's affair will then ask me or my friends cause they become increasingly curious.