Losing or lost?

I realise something. I could have already lost the meaning of playing Netball. It's always like that. When you start competing, all you will think is to win. If you win, you will be elated about the victory. However, when you lost, you'll feel lost and empty. All I think, maybe not all, but still, I think is to win, win and win. I'm not enjoying the process of playing. True, winning the game is important but enjoying the process of winning weighs even more.
Opps, today my Centre tripped over me for like at least three times and I think she fell quite badly. Sorry, take care anyway! Just tell your teammates don't injure us or others already.
Okay, I'm going to study or stare at the phsics notes already. It's kind of irritating to have tests now.

I love Netball, I love Team Amkss B'Division'10!
Hey girls, cheer up! (: It's not over yett! Though Mo might not be able to fight with us this coming Friday, but I'm sure, everyone of you out there will play your very best! Ready to take Raffles? :D